That's what I ask myself everyday as I begin this journey that all those who have ventured before me say is "life-changing." Well for me...the pain is raw. That's what I'm discovering as I finally take my turn as a Cops for Cancer Tour de Rock rider. I have made so many excuses over that past twelve years as to why I have taken my turn to ride for the kids. Every year I would say "Next year I'll ride" only to change my mind and chicken out.
To be honest ..it wasn't because of the bike riding causing me to change my mind....it wasn't the time commitment...and it wasn't the fundraising. It's the emotions. I'm scared of the emotions. I'm scared of constantly crying. I'm scared of being vulnerable and I'm scared of seeing sick kids.
It was hard enough to watch Mike Lawless and my mom go through chemotherapy, radiation and every other treatment that goes hand in hand with battling cancer but to watch a child go through it............
I'm so thankful I have two healthy children. My heart breaks for the families that are battling this disease and riding 1000 Km is the least I can do.
I hope to chronicle the moments in this blog and share them with you. Please consider supporting me financially in my endeavor and become a member of our "team."
Thank you
Janis
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